Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Time Out & Cartoon Hands
Sometimes it amazes me that Mixter will be talking about a topic that I am currently reading an article about. This time has been no exception. She is talking about taking a break from working etc. and I just happened to be reading an article about the importance of taking a "time out". The article comes from the web site that I frequent, Living Life Fully, and I often use them as journal topics. The article that I was reading was called," Call Time Out and Adjust Your Course" by Jeff Keller. The question that he posed was, How often in your life do you call a time out to review what is working for you and to put an end to what isn't? Probably not often enough. Unfortunately, we tend to become entrenched in habits which are not moving us in the direction of our goals. Something that I had been doing until recently.
I had thought, for much of my life, that I had to be successful and wanted to have much wealth. I thought that once I had my degree that it would all fall in to place. Well, here we are 8 years later and it has taken me some time to realize exactly what it is that I do and don't want. Real big wealth is one of the things that I don't want. Time has much more meaning to me these days. I have decided that playing the game is not all that it is cracked up to be. I would much rather just go along and be happy. Happiness means much more to me. I also have no desire to prove anything to anyone. I am only going to do those things that bring happiness to me and my family. I do not have to put on a show for anyone. Like Mixter, I have decided to play the game for fun. I am going to enjoy the rest of my life.
Today I finally called a new doctor to get in and get refills on my asthma meds, I have been using over the counter crap, because my doctor died a few years ago and that fact, coupled with the lack of insurance for years I have not had a doctor. I am finally going because of some weird thing that has been going on and causing me lack of sleep. I can sympathize with you on that too Mixter!!
I wake up several times a night where one, or both, of my hands feel as if they are so full of fluid that the skin is stretched tight and they are feeling swollen like cartoon hands. It hurts to even tough them in this condition. It wakes me up and then I have to hold them up in the air until a feeling of normality returns and then I can go back to sleep. It has been troubling me for several months now. There are no other symptoms that go along with this. Well, if I can not get in within the next 2 days, due to a cancellation in his office, I will have to wait for 2 weeks while he is on vacation.
I hope giving up coffee is not in my future!!! A very scary thought.